Lifting

Is it my clothes, my way of walking,
The things I carry in my hand

This space cannot hear

Or is it my own lack
Of conviction which makes
These vistas of desolation,
Long hills, the ocean desert, the barren sand, the glare
Of sun on the bone – white
Driftlogs, omens of winter,
The moon alien in day-
Time a thin refusal

The others leap, shout

Freedom!

The moving water will not show me
My reflection.

The rocks ignore.

I am a word
In a foreign language.